i dont think anyone deserves to get their hearts broken.
raahh.
as much as i hope, but there isnt anything at all to begin with okay i shall not be emo monster.


i like hangaroo the game alot makes me happy and have a sense of satisfaction altogether hawhaw
i want to go sentosa with hui and joy one day ):
for now, I LOVE HUI(:
and yes des, we will watch happy feet tog only both of us ahhh HAWHAW


gdnightbabyHOO.

10:24 PM

dearMRMONKEY.
its good just for the short conversation. and its good also to know what youre doing now makes you happy although it sucks your energy on a high level. im not sure if youre still my biggest fan of my blog, but i know im your biggest fan when it comes to asking your opinion about my new blogskins. HAHA.
i miss you la, in a that-kind-of-way.
you takecare man.

11:30 PM

HAPPY IS A CHOICE.
(:



now that my new skin has archives, i really had alot of fun reading all them. heh.
i was this lor sor man. hawhaw.
aiyooo i love shir and dara la haha super nice to me can. helping me out like some sister clan kinda HAHA.

3:51 PM

the place where it is filled with milk and honey is where i want to go.
the milky way is where i want to go.


going to meet bry and ruben tonight at punggol plaza to drink tea haha how exciting.
i played the malcom in the middle game with fy on our way back today, and he got me 16 and i got him 1 la. omg i cant believe im so lousy.
if it was not for the water and salt for SI-DE i would have kicked him agn haha.

I SAW MEL todaaay when i was in town!
ahhh i muah you la!
gave her two hugs and i misss her manymany!


im so lazy now.


happy, baby(:

6:15 PM

if only i can choose the words people tell me.
how nice would it be isnt it.
then 5months wouldnt even happen.
haha.
oh well(;


jess brought me around ystd. met a couple of her mates, and ill say theyre pretty interesting people and nice in a way too. WELLWELL. went into gotham with jess and the rest. think ive had my first laugh.
met fai, khal, sop and fy after their mos party. haha. stories were reaaally intriguing. HAHA. planned on to say hello to dara but her ic had problem and she went momo):
anw. thanks blacko(:



many love to you "dont argue already, ok?"
at the end of the day, i know you cared the most.


3thingsIwant.
1. to flow with her, with all my heart, i want to. but its hard to come out.
2.to love them, although it is so difficult to do so.. now.
3.the scholarship. (altho i know, ive missed it)



butterfly,
could you fly on my behalf, beautifully.
beautiful.

6:53 PM

ahh. haha. okay i missed/skipped/didnt go to/pon school today cause of my swollen lower lip because all the SUN. i woke up wondering why my mouth tasted funny. looked at the mirror and almost died. ): it was quite bad la. then i decided to stay in today to rest. besides its maths today and there isnt UT.
haha.
hopefully my lips' swell goes down and i can go for training later.
(; woke up thinking about my red baby.
cause i look like a red apple.
manyloves.

10:23 AM

haha. had "bump set spike" over the weekend at sentosa. so i honestly feel that i am really looking like a red apple now. paired up with phloy and our teams name "DIPO" hawhaw and i wondered why. heh. sat and sun- shu, mel, rui, rena, team temasek and si were there. anw, phloy and i really had our fair share of fun&love la, shes a good teammie i must say. (; haha the funny thing was there were 10 teams altogether, 8teams from TP and the other 2were from RP. haha. well, we won the first game and lost the other 3, of which the 3 was played consecutively. omg. it was super tiring and HOT.
anw, it was a great wkend w the girls!














phloy.















RED APPLE really.















RUI.














dipo hawhaw















bestie bie.
















and bestie siii.



:D
"A TEAM STAYS AND STICKS TOGETHER" -wongwong(;
a teammate edifies you, and does not put you down. at any expense.
just like love.
i really do hope all will turn out well.
*
its really irritating, the way to put me down infront of people.
urgh.



CG WAS GREAT cause lester came. haha. i really haven laughed THIS hard for a long long time already, all the laughs i did for the past week was nth compared to laughing with lester. haha. i thank God lesters back with me now. and with You too(;

9:28 PM

timings.
so often people lose their timings altogether.
lose the timings when they serve.
lose the timings when they spike.
lose the timings for their ministry.
lose the timings on friendships.
lose the timings on love.
lose the timings to do the right stuff at the right time altogether.


i lost my timings so much this year. be it in my minstry, people or volleyball. its all the same.
rena knew it was coming today when we were playing court. and it was encouraging to know that she noticed, even if it was during the play.
and thank you siii, yenkai, wong, zhiping, weewee, shuhui and hazel for your loves.
when i really needed them.



ill have to agree, the hardest thing on earth, is sometimes the simplest thing to do. to look at the positive of everything, cause all u need to do, is just. look.


nvm janjan. 38more days. you fly.
and one day to come.. youll catch a green bird from the sky(;

12:00 AM

accompanied fyfy to collect his fighting fish ystd at woodlands at some stranger's house. amazingly fatty boy has quite a number of orange fighting fishes. so cool. ANW i had fun meeting fatty w you fy(;


grades this weeks pretty pretty bad. i gotta buck up already. nvm, like what aaronl always say, i am one of the 3INTELLIGENT girls. so it shall come to past. hawhaw.


i know ive drifted so far away from them. now coming back into their lives seems so difficult and hard to reach. i guess this is the reason why i was not as happy as i ought to be, when the dates changed to fri once agn.


food for thought.
i am a liar, so am i lying?
LOL.

1:01 PM

hello, i miss you duckduck(; i miss the times when u dream far, about going sentosa but in the end we just dont make it happen.



my HANDSOME friend.
really. and i am really glad that we have been in the same team for the past few months. (; and i just want to let you know that i appreciate you for everything really. and the times when we crack jokes when nobody really does understand them. and i rmb last night clearly when we couldnt figure out what comes next or before FAAASTEST or PAAAWERFUL. and i really know this game isnt just about the sport, but it is about the people and friends that i have made. which includes you.
i hope you dont leave.
janjan.




*
ichosethisaboveeverythingelseigavemyheart
andthoughtsandtimeintothisbutwhenhesaid
whathessaid,irealised,maybealltheseyears
were justawasteforyoudebsterandsiii.

1:02 PM

i reached home at 5PM today.
listen up okay, 5PM.
haha. i seriously dont know when was the last time i went home straight after school to do my thing. i feel so.... guai(;
played with lappy for awhile then went to have an afternoon nap and woke up 2hours later bwhaha
sigh was super tired on a wednesday.


are nice people always boring?
i will find a man who is nice, funny and encouraging.
HAHA.
janjan is confident.


anyway. i love my family. they are the only people i can show my tiredness, my exhuastion, my unhappiness and my weariness.
with other people, sometimes i just need to appear happy and contented and lovely so as not to kill the atmosphere.but my dad mom and gajie just be there and listens to me whenever i have to say even tho it is of no interest to them. keep giving my food and making sure i had enough to eat.
(;


thefatandcuteboymademehappy
HAWHAW

7:38 PM

what a week.
haha.


anyway. pol-ite is over. and we got 3rd! won NYP. its really something out of nothing. (; during the game, i guess what really made me happy was the times when we screamed our lungs out to cheer each other on. the value of a bench warmer, noone shall ever despise. hawhaw.
as usual, when i went in to play, i left my heart on the bench and i was SO kan cheong i think i can die. haha. before i went in, gillian whispered something to me as she walked out. and, i dont think ill ever forget what she said. that one second of encouragement which i needed.


all i needed was one good ball. just one. and i got it(;
PTL.


beach volleyball on sat was reaaaly fun, altho it was super tiring. haha. its quite cool actually considering its my first time playing beach. now im looking forward for the 18th, beach volleyball. this time im playing with siii hawhaw and i am not going to let her down heh. ay, teams name gonna be "where's D" hahaha.
jan is now miss chaotar );


on tues was my first time hanging out with the guys, had chicken rice at dhoby ghaut, apparently khalis's favourite stall hawhaw really glad that my class has got quite a number of NEL pple. shirley, khalis, fyfy and i stayed at compass point to talk. moving on ahhh haha. great night guys(;


i looked at the amount ystd and cried.
it has touched my heart, now i give to You.
(;


hz gave me sth to do for weeks, and, im really going to do the best i know how about it. even if it was just one person. (;



kaixuan, aiya you always make me so paiseh. (; anw ive learnt alot of things from you for the past week, things in court and out. thanks for fighting all these while.

zj, thank you for being such a faithful captain(; i appreciate you for everything! from the SMSes and the cheering too! many many love;D

and to all the other girls! xiaoling, mel, mad, rui, june, gillian, si, wong, shu, hazel, phloy, sam, ah poh i loveeee youuu all(:
and francis too. HAWHAW.


just had breakfast at 8am at school with desdes and huihui, haha oh mannn. i miss eating with the both of them. ;D
des: excited for you! and, you are still as irritating BTW. ;D
hui: thanks hui, for gg dwn to support me, tennis jiayou hawhaw and also thanks for letting my shower at ur place on sat hehe.



haha.
and my DJS..
it just feels, just.. right. heh.
debster, today you are going to win, get champs for pol-ite and during the prize presentation, im going to be like "excuse, can u call tt girl please" hawhaw
siii, what are you doing here. heh.



once again, thank You for Your strength that You have given me Lord. i know altho now im not as happy as i am supposed to be there. but i believe You have Your reasons, so i am just going to embrace(:


i love You, Lord manymany.

9:25 AM