Youre my feet when i cant move on

20050528

food fer thought.

if your lyfe up till now wos to be made into a movie , how would it be lyke ?

12:48 PM

20050526

angels.

crimson blood shed again.

hello. (:

i brought dusty down fer a walk on vesak day. and there wos sun. he wos happy. running and runnin around. eating grass etc. than , wen i brought him home. he suddenly got so tired and stuff ? :\ than i thought he wos dying. i got so scared so i cried. aiya. it wos horrid to be quite honest. ive been thru 2animal deaths alr. i hate it. but well, dusty scared me. he wos hoppin around the house after 20mins. yes. he sure got hell from me !

kays. well , days been great. enyways , i reckon not. hahah. yeh. i had a haircut at tamp and went to collect my O's level cert. ive been draggin on this day wen i get them back y'kno. its lyke so disgustin. enyways , i vow to do better. and next year , ill be sprintin faster than jj to wherever to collect my cert. hahah. okay. dunt ask me why jingjie's name popped out. i cant help but assosciate running wiv him. charbo blessed me wiv chocolates. thanks ahhhh. (: and i had a date wiv melanie ho !! (: its been decades. as in decades decades that we last went out. before that , i decided to study at orchard's library. and , on my way there , kinokuniya wos a GREAT hindrance and temptation. okays. fine. i went in and came out 1.5 hours later. and i felt it wos the loveliest 1.5 hours there , altho my slipdisc is crankin up again cos i had to stand all the way. but im glad. reeli. there wer reeli millions and millions of books there. i bought " lord of the flies" , been hearin it in my literature tests last yr , thats its been good. so yeh. ive gotten hold of it. people say its the most disturbin book all tym. sigh. maybe im cynical. and weird. NO. im normal.

i still wish i can work in a bookshop facing books or a petshop facing animals , rather than guardian , facing medication. hahah.

yeh. melanie has grown ten thousand tyms once again. its crazy. 6years ago she's lyke shorter than me. and now , we are the same height. melanie. must be those basketball of urs. (: we watched "house of wax". okays. very thing wos grusome cept fer Chad micheal murray. hahah. enyways , wotever to the movie. but , im quite glad cuz we reeli had things to talk. initially i wos quite scared. lyke , wot if we've got no topic to talk abt , than tension would quite bad. but , its good. we talked alot. and she's been goin thru something major in her lyfe. sigh. mel , God's wiv you. (: and , well. she has always been a special friend of mine. (:

went to meet caylin and jess ystd !! hoho. caylin did her hair. aiya. i wanted to dye my hair too. but i dunt wish to shock pple wiv two shocks, cut hair and dye at the same tyms. it'll be crazy. im a very calm and conerting person y'kno. not those wild and disastrous kind. beams. yeh. caylin's hair felt lyke toufu now lah. lol. i had horrible youtiao. enyways , hello jessie ! hahah. thanks fer mr chris's slippers. i loved it.

lesterrrrrrrr. i want ur literary skills. !!! GgRrrRrR.

God has been extremely gracious to me. sigh. he is reeli a good God.

love love loveeeee of all kinds.
jns.

11:41 AM

20050520

HRSS.

i want to join the house of rabbit society of singapore. to help and protect rabbits of all kinds. preventing them from any harm. being able to open up to house unwanted or discarded rabbits. HOW HONOURABLE. dusty , u better thank me for this.

yeh. hello (: im back. and wells , my days have been fine. i guess , now working seems to be my break time. haha. can u imagine. i feel myself enjoyin whilst i work. (: heh. yeh. the irony. but well , at least ive got fer myself some income. (: so , yeh. ive been spendin quite alot fer the past few days and its terrible. i need to manage not only my time well but my finances too.

hmmm. update about CD shop guy. he's a malay y'kno. and its quite shockin because he doesnt look lyke one. i plucked up my courage one day and asked him " ure malay ? ". he said " No." weirrrd. very weird. of course no offence to malay. (: i think malay guys looks better than chinese guys. hahah. OKAY. no offence to chinese guys. hahah. at least malay guys dunt speak chinese ? hee. okay. maybe he's the reason why i say im takin a break whilst workin huh ? hahah. he works night too. (:

ben chewww. wens are u freeee to meet ????
sarahhh. wens are we gonna study and meet bikai ???
kelv. i miss youuu !
12disciples. i heart entirely the all of u !!

im gettin a lil lazy with this thing. aiyooo. BTW. jessie , i loved the meal at douglas's workplace. yummmm. wells , one things fer sure is that. i need to wake up more.

wait. i suddenly miss xinying. (:

(:

peace and love love lovee of all kinds.

jns screms.

*God says im lazy. Good intentions dunt make the cut. jieeejunn.*

hey. reminds me of JJ. reminds me of qiuze. reminds me of fanyichen !! haha. yeh. those wer the days. the days.

3:14 PM

20050507

dang. dung.

hey.

i am eyein on clinque's HAPPY. but that have to wait for the next pay day. dunt fret bvlgari. , ill never abandon you.

WHAT AM I TALKIN.

okays. enyways , weeks been great. and 2days ago , i wos floating on the air. worked morning shift , so. yes. my eyes flew to the CD shop wivout my own personal consent. grumble. he is workin mornin too. which means , from 9-3. he'll be there. aiyo. u should have been there lah. i feel so funny to be quite honest. and he resembles alot of bikai. which is not a good thing cuz , bikai has been my eye candy for awhile. hahah !! hey. which reminds me. i wonder how the guys are doin. LOL. yes , talk about i kno them reeli well.

enyhows. yesterday , i met my pastires fer some talentime discussion. haha. it wos reeli funny lah. i feel that 3 of us are lyke so different in personality yet can clique. its amazing how things do work huh. hahah. (: laters , i met my oh so lovely shas. yeh.we had a rockin tym tryin out stuff , and lookin at clothes , it has been some tym since i last went to town. the air still smelt FRESH ! whahahs. okays. walked around fareast , saw ken and the tattoo fellah. its wos lovely lah. went to mango , couldnt find a formal top thans to zara. and i finally found my formal black. whee ! and , its wos quite a rip off honestly. cuz the rest of the nice formal ones cost lyke at the most 59 ? yeh. (: i love u mal. thanks fer the lovely day. went to fetch sis from the airport later on and than we had mum's day dinner at bedok ! yummmmmms. (:

happy mama's day mum !!!! (: I LOVE YOUU !!!

im gonna start studyin tml. and im confirmed about it. thank u nat , jag , kel and debster(my SS teacher) for ur support just now wens we wer talkin online.

kay. mr ker's last day is on wed , but its apity im workin only on tues , so , its quite sad honestly. im gonna miss him. greatest pharmacist ever. (:

okays. thats about it. im goin off fer now. (: hahah. oh yes. I LOVE U PASTRIES. charbobo , i kno uve got ur eye fer one of my cg mates !! whee.

thank you JESUS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u are my source of strength. wiv u i can do many things. please hold my hand and walk wiv me till the very last tym i see this earth. sigh. i love you. (:

LOVE ,
jns

"you cant expect something different if u keep doin the same thing"

11:37 AM

20050504

IM BACKK !

hellooo my fairless bums once again. i kno ive been missed greatly in this scence. but please pardon my butt , ive been workin lyke crazy fer the past few days. so , spare me. (: and the fact is that i haven even been updatin my own diary lyin there at home.

okays ! wots new ? um. basically , things are doin fine. i feel so blessed to be in a church City Harvest where i can plant my lyfe there and ill blossom into a great flower. ready to stand in all the storms and winds in lyfe. (:

i miss a coupla friends. and being so dearly to me , jes not seein them fer 1 week , when we used to see each other almost everyday kills me tormented soul. aiiyhgts. no tym fer exgerration. muahahahs. (: lyke sarah and shas and jules. and hey. if anyone of u happen to read this somehow or wot , go and call up a friend now !! okays. not the one whom u always talk to. but someone whom uve not contacted for quite some tym alr. cuz , friends altho sounds so plain and everyday kindah thing. ull realize they'll be the one who will keep u movin forward ! just imagine , u just want to keep ur lyfe busy wiv sch work and not meetin pals enymores. so , ull be left alone ryght ? tell me. how ? i guess a visible physique figure is truely essential to any person.

i love melanie ho. known her back in pri6 ? and , its lyke. we do talk lyke here and there. she said this to me. "education isnt primary". so i went on and ask her back "so , wot do u think is primary?" she said. "PEOPLE". think about it. wells, thanks mel. uve been a wonderful sista and i thanks God that he has givne u back the lost study tym back in those days. ur passion and zest for people will drive u reeli far. (:

kay. um. this week is preparation week to study. gonna call up all the tuition teachers , but stationary . get 10year series. make sure i have a good place to study. and prepare to start the race next week. u must be wondering , lyke ive said in previous entries that ive said ill start last month ryght ? well , cuz , basically , my work's full-timer been hospitalized. so , theres reeli practically noone there at all. so , ive decided to cover up for 3weeks. and this will be the last. and hopefully and accumulated amt of money can last me for quite some tym. (:

ive made quite a few new friends who are workin at the airport departure hall alr. wani , farhana this malay guy at the left baggage and a chinese guy who workd at the CD shop next door. fine , the chinese guy do get my heart all fluttery. lol. enyways , now i look forward to work cos of these pple alr. and the promoters are reeli great. oh yes and yati who constantly es make me laugh. hahah. (:

um. talentime talentime.

a week ago, i wos talkin to sihui. suddenly , i fel so remorese again after all the sch rejection. (ive received a few rejection letters alr). so , i told her this "sihui, move on and never look back". she said "no , ill turn back and look for u janis". yes. dramamama. but , im reeli contented. reeli reeli contented. i love u sihui. (:

well , i feel so stressed for all the JC pple lyke , lest , shawn , kelv , yan. i mean its lyke hearin them tell me about sch gives me the ultimate creeps. wah. is JC lyfe that stressful ? i dunt kno man. keep goin back to God and get strength , get ur love tank filled. (:

something funny happen. i wos msgin kelv on a normal basis , lyke once awhile we'll lyke "talk" and stuff. so , we were jes talkin and stuff. when he suddenly said some thing about education. so i replied "why u so serious , dunt scre me." he replied " yes. of cos im serious. u got no tym left to study u kno. think about the amount u have got to catch up". i wos shocked. i mean , nobody reeli said something lydat to me. its as tho i got woken up or something. so , i cancelled the msg (but did not delete). wehn , after around 5mins , i calmed down. i went to my inbox to look for it so that i can reply him. but , its gone. its crazy i can tell u. i dunt kno how and i dunt kno why. sigh. thanks for the wake up call my dear. and dunt u fret abt JC lyfe. God will restore u all the tym.

um, yes. nuthing much to say. alot of things has happened im im toally blank abt it ryght now. aiiyhgts. ill be goin off fer now. (: thanks my friends.

thanks hz.

thank YOU , Jesus.

9:36 AM