of all the people who came and went.
it is him i adore the most.


just found out that the trip has trainings as well! training from malaysian coaches. i guess it new gained experiences for me.
:D


*prayers that produces a sweet aroma(:
goooodnight.

1:41 AM

of all the people who came and went.
it is him i adore the most.


just found out that the trip has trainings as well! training from malaysian coaches. i guess it new gained experiences for me.
:D


*prayers that produces a sweet aroma(:
goooodnight.

1:41 AM

celia, i read your blog. and i was really blessed and encouraged. you know, like that night during the stayover, when we were doing quiet time together. i came across the verse that said, be generous, water others and you yourself will be watered. and i am really believing in this verse. even if no one waters me, He will. and this goes the same for you too darling. i am really glad to be able to pull you up when youre sinking, and i am even "glader" that you too has pulled me up when i am going downslope.
i really love hearing dreams for God and what you want to do for Him all the time, because they alone has been my very encouragements.
and the best thing is, to be able to share our revelations together. (:


you see.
when God takes, He puts back. and even better.
for a few weeks already, or maybe even a month plus, a strong friend to come into my life was my constant prayer. not just any-o-how, but one who could make me fall in love with Jesus, over and over and over again. and He gave me two.
am i blessed or... what. heh.
celia and des.
Thank you, Lord.
so much.

11:42 PM

yesterday, debbie came for our training. i was like super excited! heh.
which means, the 3 of us get to train together all again. was really really looking forward to training then.

you know. the feeling of having a friend so close and so near it really feels that shes in you, part of your life somehow somewhat.
the feeling, when either debster or siii would walk past as a smack on the palm for an encouragement,
the feeling of hearing them calling out "nice ball, leong!"
and the best thing was, when we played game at the end of the training, the 3 of us were on the same side.




11:11 PM

ahhh.
janis is like suffering the after effects from the class farewell and all.
hurmp... 16weeks. with W16F.


wah. im like really not good with goodbyes.

was talking to my girls online, telling them about how i feel and all. and, said. yeh. we are never good with goodbyes, but then there were never goodbyes in DJS. (:
aiyo, like so touching.
heh.

then again.
i guess its all not that bad after all...
still would be able to see wong during trainings and irritating boy desmond in church. (:


*
anyways. this is for WEEWEE. dont say i never blog about you. hawhaw. cause here i am to say hello. heh.
and hello celia darling for being such a SWEETHEART!!
and ivy. hawhaw.
;D

3:04 PM

to hear and put it into action is what was always taught.

and this time im going to do it.
to trust His heart when i dont see His hand.


you know its funny how after a dark valley, youre so thankful you pulled through, and moving on to the greatness of your victory. and before you can fully "enjoy" it. the bombs come AGAIN. ahhhhhh. ):
sometimes you wonder why.
and sometimes you wonder why the person whom is supposedly the one who holds you isnt there, at all.
but then again, remembering what "daily bread" says, looking at the positive of everything, i guess the person believes that you have got the capacity to handle and deal with it (:


haha. was really blessed by what hyder wrote for me.
"its always within you, ah leong ar"

despite the awful past few days, theres still soooo much to thank God for.
-answering my prayer the very next second. (on the train ystd)
-sending a chinese speaking pastor to pray for granddad
-my msia trip
-ability to be strong for others as well despite my owns shortcomings.
and the list goes on and on.

now i know what is meant. with great troubles, great grace comes along too.

and ive learnt, to love is a choice.

*
ahhh. everyones like crying now its the last day of school. ):
i feel so bad cause ive not no more to offer.
anyways, if anyone of you from w16f, i guess good things will always come to an end, but. the memories of these good things lasts, forever. heh. so aiyaaa. no problem la. anytime k.
:D

12:39 PM

12:20 AM

RELATIONSHIPS preceeds MINISTRY.


*the formation of DJS,
debbie janis sihui.
the formation of DJS2,
desmond janis suriani(wong)

bwhahahaha.


yawns o:
goodnight janjan(manjan manner)
hawhaw.

1:34 AM

amazing how God sends people from nowhere to encourage you, people whom is the last person on your mind. (:

"I am glad that the Lord made a difference in your life so continue to base your self worth on the finished works of Jesus rather than self. Honestly, as humans we are all ugly to many extent (be it internally or externally) so thank god we have Jesus, He is our beauty and He can Literally make you shine. You know the word "charisma", I heard from my pastor before the root word comes from "gift from God" or "gift of grace" - and what is God's greatest gift? Jesus! So when we have Christ, we have charisma (to the world that also mean charm or beauty). So start yourself as how Christ sees you, we are all beautiful as we have Jesus and He sees us as His spotless and blamless bride.
Be blessed."

bless the person whom blessed me. (: praise the God behind this person.

2:09 PM

cup of warm milo every morning makes a day a little nicer to begin with.
hz said, life is short, we should learn how to pace it and live each day to the fullest. heh. thats why im going to help out with the dialect service this weekend. hahaha. okie. hopefully the minimal knowledge of the chinese language and canto will be of good use this week. hawhaw. (:



was doing my QT last night, came across the verse. you know, be with the wise, and you yourself will be wise. fools, and be like a fool. so i guess the friends whom you choose really makes a whole lot of difference altogether. the people whom u decide to step into the first circle. yesterday's class during one of the group's presentation, they mentioned something in their slide, "its not what you know, but who you know."
last week, one morning i was reading my daily bread on the train. and they talked about "friends". About Job and Daniel. Both had so much in common, went through serious trials and challenges, and both has great success because of the blessing of God's presence in their lives. viewed as great giants of faith. and something else they had in common, each has three significant friends. and the difference was, Job's friends was a thorn in his flesh offered condemation instead of compassion. however, for daniel, his three friends stood together in honiring God, supported and strengthened each one another.
(: i guess, its true. when they say, what makes you, is not what you know but who you know.....



i never liked hospitals.
bless my daddy(:



to just walk and walk and walk!
;D


9:57 AM

thank you, huizhen (:


i love a pat on my head, or a firm pat on my shoulder for doing well or just a smile of affirmation. (:


its funny how i can meet debbie today at 430pm, and of what seems like only a paragraph of words, it already 7pm. haha.
how time flies.
i guess thats why theyre called BESTIES isnt it. (:
I LOVEEE YOU MUCHIEEE DEBSTER.


there are some people in my life, whether they happen or accidentally come into, that i really look up to and think about. the way they live their life has been my encouragement. and that, ive been Miss greedy for the last week days. i want pastor mike's spirit of joy, don moen's spirit of peace and pastor kong's courage. heh heh.


what a week. everything about this week was a fight, for me. im breathless. but once again. God has been the reason why i smile every morning, and my comfort in the darkest nights.
ccc album has been a great encouragement to me. it always has. like last year. (;
im ready and excited for the following week, because im going to give my best in everything, and change my mentality, as said from a "irritating" friend.
:D

11:05 PM

this one if for You Lord.
(:
this one is for you DJS.
(:
this one is for you siii.
(:
this one is for you debster.
(:
this one is for you daddy, mummy and ga jie.
(:
this one is for you shss C'girls 01-02.
(:
this one is for you team RP.
(:
this one is for you, X.
and the ball went into the net.
gulps.
so ironic...

giving You all glory for the good plays.
i am nothing without You, i am something, with You.
(;

11:24 PM

sis lizhen is a happy woman after going for her make-up cell today.
(:
one thing that i caught from her is her praying lifestyle. saying that, she prays and prays and PRAYS. on the bus, waiting for someone, having her work break. she prays.
now i know why shes sucha happy woman.


during ministry, i was once again reminded of my very first word spoken into my life 3 years ago by sis yahlan, the joy of the Lord is my strength, and that ill soar, high, with the eagles. shes really, a woman of the greatest courage, and the greatest faith in the people around her.
bless her, Lord. (;



my vision for sem 2. i want to go thru that sem with at least 2 As, considering ive got all Bs this sem. and i want to make leong yinqi useful during science and maths&COMPUTING modules. hawhaw.


wee: thanks for calling me in the morning ystd to talk to me on my way to school, when i really needed some company then. (: considering i missed my bus and was so RAAH. heh. i was really touched by your small gesture of calling up.
tiff: thanks for encouraging me this week tiffany, about cellgroup and huizhen not being around this week. and thanks for understanding how i feel when not many can empathise with me. you know, despite not talking to you for eons properly. i thank you for listening to me on the phone and your encouragements when i really needed one.


-love those who are EASY to love.
-love those who are DIFFICULT to love.
-love those who are DIFFERENT from you.


shame on how i look at some people, knowing that i can never have them as close as before despite all my wantings deeply. but i guess, like what i read from celia's blog ages ago. friends for a season, friends for a reason, and friends for a lifetime.


ill take time, so smell the roses. (:

9:55 AM

dr yap is really mr professional la.
okie. ear was cut. stud was taken out.
bondage removed.
professing strong woman. hawhaw.


stayed over at his place with the girls that night, and i enjoyed myself pretty much :D
and barely had any sleep. 2hours of sleep. and i was almost ALL calm and collected on sunday morning. thank you. got a few bite marks from an abusive friend whom i love alot. and great bonding with celia. what a sweetheart. and a great buddy like wee to be my hand extension when i desperately need one.


im like in the same group as desmond AGAIN. like a fly he flies. HAWHAW.


you know. during fop. i was really blessed by don moen the best i guess. :D he's like got the spirit of peace in his life man. i could feel it again. and i want it. although his songs are kinda slow. but, they were a blessing to me in my life. sitting in between sihui and debbie furing the second night of fop and hearing their voices as they sing the old songs, just brought me back to how we became friends. (: chapel of Christ the redeemer. when we loved the Lord together, sang together, praised together asked a billion questions to our bible study leader together. heh. despite the many coming ins and outs, SIHUI and DEBBIE still stood strong by my side.
volleyball for you, girls.



wah. praying really lifts your burdens up you know. now i feel like i lost 10kg. BWHAHA.
you know. looking at what youve lost stinks. looking at what you have left goes figure. and now i feel like a rich taitai, very blessed. with what and whom i have left.

JESUS, why are you so nice to me? (:

and this time, im gonna take my time, to smell the roses.

5:56 PM

im getting a lil nervy right now.
my first surgery in 18years. tomorrow.
gulps.
naaaaah. itll be fine jns.
His angels' gonna accompany you darling.
(:


class was HILARIOUS.
hahahaha.
the double name craze.
oooh... janjan!
sniigeerrs.



*tsktsk.
hyder: lEtx mE kiSh yOu liKez Ah HiIiI lEhz.
hawhawhawhaw.
riz: lurrrrp. cheer up honey.
excited for FOP! and excited for sunday night to meet up with the guys again!
:D



ps: celia darling, you have been there for me. and i wanna be there for you too. much love.

12:40 AM

PRAISE THE LORD(:
for
i did better than i expected for my understanding tests.
volleyball has taken a higher level from now.

lets go all the way for pesta sukan open cup girls.

phloy
elaine(ah poh)
sihui(siii)
eeling(da de)
gillian
zhijun
xiaoling
melissa
madeline
rena
wong
shi rui
shu hui
regina
june
samantha
:D

first surgery. ahhh. :S
hope its not gonna be scary and be over soon tho.


taking my time to smell the roses..

11:36 PM

i believe in reconciliations.
all the time.


read her blog.
and it made me ache, until it went physical.
i wonder when i can get over it.


i know that i should not ask for too much.
i know that i should continuously seek for a higher standard of living.
i know all these things.


rev mike connell has got a spirit of joy. a strong and faithful spirit of joy that i know walks with him everyday. i could feel it. and i want it.
spirit of joy. (:


desmond said something like, "a living dog is better than a dead lion"
in another light, i guess. no matter how glamourous last time may seem, how successful and how happy you were. its the now that matters the most. what you have left in your hands. the people whos still standing there. even though if you had to start from stratch, or just a few people left standing by you.



God wrote down all my minuses for me on a sheet of paper. and i was so darn paiseh la. haha. time to start sewing leong yinqi. (:


thanks jo, for the syners cheese pretz.
thanks celia, for that awfully encouraging card and famous amos.
He didnt short change me after all huh.


AND YES.
this time im going to take time to smell the roses. (:

4:45 PM