20050624
i love my friend you eggtart ! and im not sayin this cuz ive jes read wot uve written !!! i mean , its true. and maybe ive reeli neglected ur feelins. im sooo sorree. yes , i kno abt yesterday. :S sighhh.
i kno , a thousand roses can never make me rightfully ur friend again.................
11:47 AM
20050622
hies.im missin hz alr !!!on monday , i think i wos in a pretty good mood. heh. yes !! he came back !! im sooo happy. lyke finally after 2.5 weeks !! i wish he wouldnt go away again. enyays , had father's day dinner !! yipeee ! at merchant court hotel. buffet. wah. its delicious pls. lots of seafood , and buffet. eat all you can. dessert wos fantastic too. sigh , i feel so bloated and blessed. heh. thans , we walked around clarke quay and jo started talkin she's in the aging population alr , at the age of 21. omg. on tues , i went to study alone at orchard. and i want to say thank you to franky fer helpin me in tyms of my confusion !! grr. yub. and i managed to do and undertsand 2 topics of chem , and read the book of poems and prose. beautifully written, (: had dinner wiv dad and mum at cineleisure ! hahah. mum brought me to this korea store where they sell all the korean imported stuff ? so niceee !! hahah. (: grins. at night , did literature before i headed for bed. oh ya. im excited fer sunday and my monolougue !!wells , today. i went cityhall to study before waitin fer jess to come over. i lyke atmospheres are starbucks and coffeebeans ?? the workers there are lyke all so friendly and joyous lah , shout here and there the orders , so happening. than , they all are malay too. nice people. and than i come to realize that everytym wens i go to work , and smile at people , its the malays who smile back and talk to me. all my friends i made at the airport are all malays. i tried to smile at this chinese guy and girl but they jes gave me this err-do-i-kno-you-look. :\ oh well. met sis yahlan today at coffeebean to talk about my Os. (: umm , jess and i went bugis to collect her pay and than to marche to eat. aiyo. i feel so guilty now. seems lyke wer the only ones who enjoy the true beauty behind soft shell crab. whee !! heh. okays , thans to bs wiv chiews , tiff , jess and jeremy. (: heh. yaa. had dinner at geylang wiv dad , mum and jo tonight too ! heh. y'kno. i never felt so happy in my lyfe jes to have dinner wiv my family. its lyke , last tym ill be eating dinner wiv them almost every other night. but seems lyke , i spend reeli lil tym fer dinne wiv them. and , they dunt ask much too. love u dad and mum. had frogleg porridge and beef huo tiao at geylang !! oooo. yumms. aiyo. i feel so sinful again. heh. dad drove us around geylang to see the real scene behind geylang. so much fer education. i saw many prostitues. but , i feel so heart wrecked fer them ? sigh. altho , they're lyke lookin fer customers and stuff. but i can tell that behind those fronts , they've got a whole lot of story to pay a price to hear. why they ended up in sucha line. sigh. and , sometyms. they've got no choice i guess. oh well. didnt kno singapore had sucha high line as these thigns too eh. :S i kno of a girlfriend. my best friend. and she told me this , she enjoys doin many things , but she just isnt good at them. and , it will be quite silly to do something which altho u lyke but not good at ryght ? she's quite down now to be quite honest , lyke. she aspires big things in lyfe , but yet. its so far for her to reach at all. she told me she knos she has to be strong and STRONGER in all her ways. but at tyms , she wishes , she has a change of fate. my girlfriend told me , why is it that she can encourage the world to wake up , dunt be dishearten. but she cant encourage herself. why cant anyone be in her shoes. well , lets jes pray that this firned of mine will pull thru even at her darkest tyms in lyfe. i love you deeply , Jesus. jns screams "amen" !
9:57 PM
20050616
hies.
im ill. sigh , and bein ill doesnt do u any good esp wens uve got lyke so many things to do fer the week !!
i think i dunt have to blog about wot happen on tues lah ah , my other mates have blogged it so nicely alr. heh. yes , i think God touched e314 in the area of relations one thing for sure. im quite glad we've gotten much closer alr. not sure how did it all happened , lyke so fast and so sudden ? and , i wont be surprised if one day soon we'll hafta multiply or reshuffle !! ),: so , ill take all these fun tyms in my memory closet and keep them. and when i move on to another cell in the future , ill be motivated because e314 taught me that even tho we all came from different walks of lyfes , and diff cliques , we still made it thru to be closely knitted together. (:
i cant wait to hang out wiv svrvsv in the days to come !! yes ! and more stay overs at mal's wens jules is back from msia. hahah. :D
oh yes. food fer thought. i saw chityong that day ! and wens we saw each other , we wer reeli shocked lah. okay , and the next thing wos , he started talkin to me first. okay. this is the first tym cuz he hardly ever talks to me in class last year ! yeh. had a reeli fruitful conversation wiv him. lyke , enjoyin his poly lyfe and stuff. yeh. he changed quite alot. more socialble. and i think he doesnt mind me callin him chitchat enymores. whahaha !!
somebody please scold me for not studyin. PLEASE !!
jns screams "amen!"
and that wos the last tym i saw him.
i kno , so fairytale ryght. ha.
6:59 PM
20050610
emerge was AWESOME.
and i meant it. jes one touch from the Holy Spirit can leave you changed forever. i guess , for me. unlyke any other youths in the auditorium who had skuls to go to. a spark of revival to spread the love to their own skuls. i hadnt had any where to shout about. but , i believe that God has given me many other friends i made these tyms to reach out to.
i went thru a healin process in my heart.
i reeli need to share something here:
it hasnt been easy for me for the past half a year going thru something which many cannot relate to. i ran all the way wiv God for six months not knowin where he wants to bring me. and he finally brought me to this tym. and emerge made me touch God. i have been pretty phobiaric for the past few weeks to be quite honest , i have heard from pple who retakes their Os w/o goin to a skul dunt do usually well. and there are some girls at my workplace who retakes and dunt do well too. i felt very scared and inferior.. during the second session of the conference . i wos sick , EXTREMELY tired because i had 7hrs of slp only in 2days. initially , i didnt felt lyke comin. my physical tiredness is takin over me then. but i told myself on tues night. no , jns. the more u dunt feel lyke doin it , just do it. i went to the conf. feelin very exhausted. pastor kong preached. i agreed to it , but it just didnt carry me thru. i got very frustrated because half the tym i was tryin to keep myself awake , after that durin worship. i screamed in my heart " GOD , please show ur face to me. i DUNT want to feel tired.". not expectin anything at all , the Holy spirit came and touched me lyke a wave as how pastor always describes. and i just cried and cried. its as if someone just turned on the tap in my eyes and forgot to turn it off. he burnin love jes sank into my heart , and burned a million words of offerin in my spirit. its lyke , God just held me close to him. huggin and lovin me , lyke a child , i wept into his arms. i reeli dunt kno how to descirbe this magnificant encounter. it is which words alone cannot be expressed by. it is truely amzing. and then...
" i will walk with you thru your 2nd attempt of the Olevels. i will hold your hand. and i will never let you go. "i kno that ill never have to run this race alone. it is no longer i who lives but christ who lives in me. so , i got this- i study not for MY future MY recognition MY properTy , but since it is God who lives in me, ill study and DO EXTREMELY to glorify God. let glorifyin him be the foundation of your beginnins and thoughts and motives. reeli man. i want to be able to say. "I GOT ALL A's BECAUSE OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST !!!" (: im entrusting my future into your hands , Jesus. i thank God for my cellgroup as well. everyone has their own encounters to share about that i believe it is which that has brought us closer together. reeli , the friendship has gone to a higher level. i love you all e314. i want to glorify God with this little that i have in my hands , in my heart , in my lyfe.God can use an ordinary person lyke YOU to do EXTRAORDINARY things for the Lord.jns SCREAMS "AMEN!"*deeper and deeper , im fallin in love with you........*
-hillsongs's saving grace , a beautiful song.
2:30 AM
20050604
SUPS. went fer dah electric exhibition at expo todays and im so inspired to get the zen neeon. thanks huh jess. lol. yeh. went to the sports exhibition too ! where they sell lyke sports wear and all. and lest , jess and i decided to be lovely to jj and got him a pair of running shorts.nike okays. yeh. hahah. its wos reeli funny. i mean , choosing one and findin the ryght size and all. yaa. and thanks lest. ur laughters made all look. and our auntiness wos simply , ummm. shud i say enlightening ?? haa.cg wos great as always. and its great always cuz , there wer lots of laughter. and i dunt understand why is it that guardian sounds so funny. bleh. hahah. we all got jj to try on the shorts. and its wos HILARIOUS !! EXTREMELY FUNNY. i mean , i laughed lyke crazy. and i mean crazy. hahah. atmosphere wos excellant. lest as usual the loudest laugh and hearing him laugh makes u laugh too ! lol. and the fiercest sunbird laughed too. ay. pple , wens u see him laugh at something , u kno thats reeli funny. very encouragin one leh. hahah. yaa. everyone wos ROARIN wiv laughter. hahah. and jess , my HECTIC and FUNNY mate sure did contribute to alls too. lol. and as im bloggin abt this , im laughin too. HAHAHAHAAAAAaAaAAaHhhHAAAAaHaAaa !!!! gosh.wells , ive been talkin to charbo , and- talkin to her always let me see new truths. thank God fer this sista of mine. and we were talkin about leaders in our church , and how. we should constantly be consistent. and faithful in every small things that has been assigned to us. and , the whole afternoon , i keep thinkin about it. i kept thinkin , wot if God jes decideds to let me go , let my chance go because i have not been faithful. im afraid of loosin it. we talked and encouraged one another. and i believe that God has placed in everyone a callin. i regret for takin it all so lightly. but i believe that caylin , we will run the race together !! (:another thing , i realized something different about the leaders in church , (hz). i mean , its lyke- they are all very spiritual minded. and hearing about new friends , new comers they get all excited and their mood jes change. and wens we changed svc , so that e314 can see the new members more , hz wos simply delighted. i reeli admire hz , i mean , wiv her own set of problems , she has to hold her member's ones , work , minister , church. so many things , week after week. shes is still strong. and appear strong. her life is worth a million testimonies. its truely amazing y'kno. im in awe. in awe , in awe. change the things i see. to the things u see , Jesus. many things have been going thru in my mind this week , but well. i vow not to write a single sad thing in my blog. so , this thought shall my put in my physical diary !oh boy. emergeee is coming !!!! yipeeeeeee ! im excited and hungry. i believe that ill have a breakthru in my personal lyfe. im prayin hard for cheryl and kel. i want them to come to church next sunday. please pray for these 2 of my friends kay ? cuz , i kno that wen they come , they'll have a great encounter wiv God. and seeing them have an encounter , is lyke me havin an encounter too ! how great is this !! oh yeh. beloved frankie said hieee to everyone who's reading this entry !! hey ah pek dearest , dunt be too stressed out !! u made it before , and continue working hard , ull make it again fer ur exams aiiyghts !! btw. u have been a blessin in my lyfe y'kno ?? (: ur niceness teaches me many things in lyfe which can never be taught , but caught. lest , i thank you for being so true before me. sarah , wens emerge is over. we are SO goin out together.ben , i miss ur blinks. lol.jena , get out and talk to meeee !! hahah.marcel , thx fer offering ur help to teach me. (:be nice to ur gf !be lyke David , who never ran away from his problem , but he ran to his problem. and. he defeated it.pretty long entry huh ? im quite a talker. please pray for me that i will not be lazy ?jns screamsss "AMEN". *
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