hey. okay , im sorry la , fer all the delay and stuff. everytym i wanna blog , i get soo extremely tired. trust me. my eyes now want to be blanketed very extremely soon.


preparation fer cny wos indeed pretty fun and exciting fer me in one way or another. lyke , diggin out everything , claening the dust of 05 , jes reminicsin on wot happened in 05 , the good tyms and bad tyms. everything of it. there wer tyms worht e shout out fer , and yes. tyms to sit and tear abt. but , it isnt all abt the sad mosshy goshy stuff i guess. more lyke , wot ive become of it. i read some extremely extremely long billion tyms ago letters from mates in pri and sec skul , and started laughin out loud la. whaha. its hilarious. i dunt kno why enyone bother readin my blog. haha. enbyways , abt , how insaneeee abt raymond and denis and him ive gotten. and how , i always want to be in main6 , and thinkin how i pressed on to my position. hawhaw. lyke HEII lydat. :P the whole entire day , i packed and clean and packed and cleaned. :D sheesh.


chinese new year wos simply a blast fer me. wen i woke up on wed morn , i jes felt as tho ive had an ultra long nice sweet dream. darn. i dread the reality. haha. i guess thats why , happy tyms dunt last long. so that we'll learn how to appreciate it all eh ? 5th uncle got a new babyyyy. hawhaw. shes 2yrs old now , LI YUN. shes SUPER cuteeeee. gosh. trust me. knoin janis. i nvr had a fetish if u wish to call it on children or kids or anything lyke that sort. but , this cousin of mind , jes took my feet away la. haha. first tym , kno. i ever adored a lil girl 2yrs this much. hahaha. yeh. this new year , i got to talk to both my cousins samuel and nelson greatly more too. got to kno them more , their hearts desires. and , im pretty lyke. WAH honestly. (: nvr thought it cld come out from them ? lyke , nelson. party animal back in KL , hardcore clubber , entirely in the whole heehaa scene la. wells. shared wiv me. he wants to be rich. and fer that reason is that he wants to make his dad happy. cuz , he loves dad alot. this the first tym , this cousin actually opened up to me tho. (: and samuel , whos jes joined the workforce , he talked to me , alot alot abt the course that i shld go , the decision that i shld make and all. and , im very grateful , takin the tym to talk to lil18yr old cousin whos quite lost on where she shld go. 2nd day















yeh. heres jes some pics over the new year. (:


my results will be out in lyke , 4days tym. ok. 3days tym. haha. im more lyke AHHHH , but not the shiverin AHHH kinda ? haha. and thinkin abt wot i went thru abt all the studyin by myself , i reeli cant imagined how i pulled thru leh. honestly , wen i had to explain my whole trauma to EVERYONE. and how , i had to struggle wen i dunt understand issues , cuz , none of my mates redoing it. i studied all day and night alone. wiv God. God reeli held my hand. and , He's been holdin my hand. until today , until fri , until i choose my skul , until i start skul , until i graduate , until i get into uni , until i get a job , until i get married to my vet , until i grow old , and until i hold His hand physically. (:

to walk in God's will. to be in His will.


i wouldnt give up the pple who are less worth it fer the pple who are more worth it , is that wot u say of me ? tell me then. so , u will do that ? so , ull give up this friendship we share , fer someone more impt lyke u kno who. isnt it ? everyones different to me. and uve been very very special to me in your own lil ways. how , u wer the one who cared abt e smallest detail in my lyfe , and that matter alot alot more to me as compared to any other big bogus words anyone has said to me. and im tellin u now tt i love mrmonkey more than any other of my toys.


people always leave ,
sometimes they come back.


love jns.

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