Youre my feet when i cant move on

20060119

i kinda miss the melancholy of last week honestly. haha. so snazzy ryght. but enyhows , i loved the cold air. seriously , and esp. i miss the tyms wen i cld sleep until wotever tym i want and lyke. sniggers. the innocent bliss. quoted by snugs of course. hawhaw.

enyways , everyday something happen , i wos so sure i wos gonna be lyke "im gonna blog abt this laters" and i got the tied dead end and ended up not doin so. so , pls , dunt blame me fer my unfaithfulness. spare me jes this once , pls ? okays. ive been a good girl , finishin up my lesley pearse book alr. its very very awesome book i must say. i wish i cld meet her in person one day and ask her abt her inspirations man. she mustve been a pretty magnificent lady of her kind.

last tues . after work , i headed down to TP to watch siii play her game wiv combine ITE. and they lost , sadly. enyways , as i wos watchin the whole play , a sudden spurge of familiarization came upon me. (haha. i think , im tryin my best here:P) the tyms wen i helped my team scored a goal , and jes that one second wen i cld jump up into the air and spike the ball down , jes that one second in the air , to tell the fate of the next point. and its always that one second which u feel the longest styain up in the air. and , if it lands on the floor of e opponent. its ours to be. (: and how wen we manage to fight it thru , together as one. and how the girls wld encourage me wen its my turn to play at the back. which , of cuz , everyone knos , i suck at playin the back. whaha. :D yeh , it wos lovely. i miss volleyball alot. (: esp , playin wiv the girls. well , altho itll never happen that we play as one enymore , the memories are best kept dere isnt it. i thank God i chose volleyball. GRRRAWWW. my hands itching.

yeh. had dinner wiv the girls that night. and i had a mighty good tym wiv em. and , they bought me a fish !!! (: now its in the huge glass cup jingjie got fer me fer christmas. (: i remember last year , wen we wer gonna get our results , deb ster and siii gave me this adidas hand thing , in white. and we wore it together to go get our results last year. and thru the whole trauma , they wer dere fer me. and , its funny u kno. how i always thot ill lose the adidas thing , but ill still find it in the end !! i lost it 7 mths ago , and i thot it wos fer sure , until , wen i wos spring cleaning , i found it again in my cupboard !! its very encouraging , lyke as tho , its lyke , no matter how distant we all seem to be and how many tyms wen i felt ive lost em , theyll never be lost. but always always found. reeli ah. wen we all wanted to go to the same route , we ended up in a totally different path. sigh , thank You Lord , fer sihui and debbie.

okays. results are gonna be out in lyke , less than a months tym. lyke so fast lydat. haha. sop fast ryght. yeh , i emailed moe , and some polys fer enquiry. seems lyke i dunt hafta take up an art related subject to do tech art management. so , i thank God alot. ALOT. im excited to start skul honestly. all the wake up earlys and e lecturers and the work to be done. sheesh. enyone here readin this who dreads skul , pls be happy if ure in a skul now of cuz. :D

yet again , i think abt how pple can go all about the promises and the words they say to bring the level of friendship up into another level. the bonds , the agreements the promises , seems lyke nuthin to them at all u kno. and its silly la. i reeli miss a coupla pple in my lyfe , whom well. are still dere. but , its different alr. i dunt kno how to describe but , it all seems so loveless and not alive anymore. lyke as if talkin to each other wos a chore and , died , some where along the road , i dunt kno wen and i dunt kno how. they say its because of the new person/pple in ur lyfe. i wldnt say so , id say. its you. how you reacted. to wish that things to be lyke last tym wen we wer happy as friends isnt wot i want. cuz , its last tym as i have alr said. tym did tell after all. (: oh well. jns , get used to it. i haven moved my dear , it wos you. dunt u think ?

dear eggtart.
i dunt kno wot has become of us honestly ? but i reeli miss you alot. wen ull call me out of the blue and always at the wrong tym wen im either slpeein , dinner , workin. and how you always "ay , so bad" to me as well(: how u always ask me to wear that stinky ribbon on my forehead or sth. i kno i kno skuls started , uve been thru a freakin rough patch these days , strugglin wiv that and all. but , i jes want to say. i reeli miss you. and i wish , ull talk to me lyke how we used to do. big love. trust me on that.

i love God. its amazing how He always jumps back in wen im startin to die and rot away tt kinda thing ? its reeli pure joy to be knoin tt Hes dere. listening. always dere u kno , sometyms , its jes that we are too often caught up wiv our own lyfe. the things that is happening to us that we neveer once realized that we cld actually lift it up to Him. "rest on the Lord" , wos wot i heard from her. is that it Lord ?

and fear. fear is nvr found in the bible , neither is it found in God. Courage , despite of fear ull still do it , press in and move on. i remembered wot rev copeland said "feat has already been defeated". hz's ryght , God hadnt moved in this case , it wos me. has it ?

hz is reeli a woman of God. sometyms i always wonder , how the leaders in my church make it out so far , and realized its , not their talents , but , the hunger , desire , passion and willingness fer the Lord isnt it. i want that too. i want it , God.

thank you fer constantly tryin jessiewoo. (: i appreciate it. reeli , i do.
thank you Lord fer tiffanyteng. i must emphasize wot a wonderful friend you have fer me. altho , its doesnt seem alot to you , well. u have done. alot alr , fer me. (:

okays. im gonna go off fer now.
janisleong.

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