i jes finished talkin to don choo. haha. yes.
hes in the same situation as me , doin his O's again back then and i wos jes randomly askin him abt it la.
and he started tellin me abt his route , his dream of bein a pilot and makin it so sures that he knos wot he wants to be. goin to do some maritime course thing and followin by doin a private course of pilotin academy or sth ? he started tellin me alot alot of information abt it , so i asked him , how does he kno all these. he said this. "since pri 2 its been like my dream job. so i took my time to research n ask around. "

i begun to think , since pri2 , i wanted to become a vet. to be one so much that i reeli went all out to study abt animals in pri skul , haha. and , it sort of died along the way. . and only in sec1 it revived wen i brought hamham to the vet and seein dr bryan onn treat hamham amazed me alot. all the love n passion into his job. back then , i vowed ill study hard to get into the science stream and take up bio. but , it dint happen. until i so degraded , to , marry a vet , workin wiv a vet , bein a vet assistant except bein a vet myself somehow. haha. so corny ryght. yeh , i dunt want to waste my tym anymore. doin nuthing fer the next 2motnhs wen i get back my results. sigh.


and i thought of the pain of it again , the pain of not doin well again. and i remembered wot pastor kong preached , dunt look back on the pain !! janis , its goin to get better. its true , wen they say , nobody will truely understand how u feel abt a certain issue unless theyve been dere themselves..


wot is ur dream , wot is the loudest cry of ur hearts desires ? wot do u reeli want to see yourself doin , being happy in it ? wot have u always wanted.


i cant wait to start skul.
please shock me dear God , wen its out.

wiv the deepest.
jns.

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