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i looked at everyone today.
is there more to wot then it meets the eye ?
im so unpredictable , sometyms i want you , the other i dunt.
true enough , the truth flipped the card. he stayed instead of the other. i wondered why all the tym fer the whole week. i reeli felt it wos obvious , their ways of lyfe. their lyfestyles and everything abt them. but yet. the truth flip the card. love u ben. (:
i wish you cud jes tell me the real reason fer not showin up. how many tyms have u felt me dere standin all alone , waitin.
sniggers. i feel lyke im gettin used to it.
everyones drownin themselves and sweet indulgence and liquor. tear it apart , and tell me wot hurts u the most. i cant stand it wen ppls turn to temporal issues to kill their sadness. why not look to God. reeli. why not look to God wen Hes gonna clean you up fer good always. sigh. i wish theyll see it. one day.
hey tricia , if u ever come ascross this one day , i jes want to tell you. i still love you. and i miss you dearly. sigh. i reeli do.
egg dint do well. sigh. eggtart , jes want to let you kno. i kno how it feels cuz ive been there before. let my touch it. i love you. okay , fine. ure thee most gorgeous lookin eggtart can. hawhaw.
ive been watchin one tree hill fer the past few days. hailey said this to nathan. "all i ever can give you is my heart. if my heart is not enough for you. then , im not enough for you."
thank you Jesus. for tgif. (:
can best friends of the oppo sex stay bestfriends forever and not feel anything more then wot it is meant to be all the way to the death bed ?
dear van honey , another big hug fer you. no tears this tym ok? (:
eeks. jessie and shawn saw denis that day. this , feels. weirdd. knockknock. wot are you ?
aiya. im being so random here.
big love,
jns (:
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