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i am shocked of how tym has been flyin past by. and , dunt u feel that the days are reeli zoomin lyke mad. i dunt remember my pri skul days bein so fast. hmmmm. is it the technologies fault or is it because Daddy will be comin back soon ?
this year , i dint go back to tampines to celebrate the lantern festival lyke how , every year ill go back. i remember runnin downstairs wiv tons of paper lanterns and millions of candles in my hand , excited and extremely happy. meet up wiv zk , ivan , les , sihui and start burnin down the playground.
and the normal days wens ill go downstairs to the park to find crystal , jenny , johnny and aunt corina and her dog. i rmb how i would go down wiv my bicycle or blades to meet up the gang. or even visit the malay woman wiv 12 cats ! and how , id kno every single pet owner livin dere. and how they'll talk to me abt their pets. now. i dunt kno where jenny and johnny are. if aunt corinas doin fine in aus , and wot crystal feels anymore.
ben , i love you. and im sorree i haven been able to find tym fer u , even if it wos jes one dinner. i miss the tyms wens we'll talk for the whole night even wens deres skul the next day ! and i rmb tellin u , i have to slp or mr lee would kill me fer fallin aslp on his class. and you tellin me to tell mr lee , to punish you instead. hahaha. :P yaa. i miss it wens you always talk to me abt your love fer marilyn mansoon and how your dots went . . . i miss your winks wen i walk past you. whaha ! okay. that sounded wrong. but , u have been such a loyal friend. even tho ive been reeli busy wiv my lyfe. altho i wosnt the prettiest of the crowd , and u wer livin on a high profile basis , u chose to ignore that and made me yer pal. 10yrs laters , ull hafta visit my bookstore down the road wiv ur car and ur first million as u promised. my AIAI pal fer lyfe. i promise. (: van , we can sit down beside each other and not say a single word and leave knowin that we jes had to greatest conversation ever. you kno , our differences are obvious and real. but i dunt reeli care abt it. i care abt how it all started. and how God engraved your name on my heart. ill change my look , my hair , my perspective. but my heart is nvr goin to change. i am goin to fail you one day lyke how im goin to fail the rest of the world honey. no. im not gonna see it crumble and fall into pieces lyke how other relations did. these are words merely. can u hear wot im sayin to you in my head now ? (: i love you.im too selfish. he can make me smile and laugh lyke a crazy monkey and ultimately its jes a show. i dunt think i need him to be funny anymore , i need him to be him , in God.
i think i love guardian more now. hahaha. serious. i mean , everyones lyke a big family. and , the aunties jes keep blessin me wiv food. and they'll will be lyke "bu yong jin lah , wo qing ni". hahah. and im sure , their countless treats are worth lyke so much lah pls. (: not only abt their blessings but , theyre reeli good listeners and jokers too. and encourages you as well to do well in lyfe. i enjoy workin in the airport. i meet reeli funny and xtremely nice pple as well. and yes. esp wens a grp of japanese skul boys comes in one class. u can jes imagine. or even weird drunkard man who starts tellin u abt his whole lyfe in english and spanish ! lol. i love it wen pple are so full of love , they call pple they dun kno dear or darling and speak blessings. (: esp aus old women and men. and how they'll talk to you lyke a friend. whaha.
they say a leopard will nvr change its spots. i refuse to believe that.
i love The Starting Line. their songs are awesome.
i thought abt it. and realized that ive been so selfish to keep you fer myself ! grr.
47more days.
dear God , pls break my heart wiv the things that break your heart.
bring me to the place where tears nvr exsist.
i nvr want to lie to you.
jns*
(NASI GORENG PUTEH IKAN BILIS)
okay !! im prolly gonna come back lyke in a few decades. it wos a long entry. :\
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